Go West~Chapter 35

Go West 

by DiVoran Lites

Chapter Thirty-five

Ellie

“Where were you born? “ Ellie sat with her back against the head of the bed while Nancy lay flat.

“My people came from Germany in 1876 and built this ranch,” said Nancy, so I was born on a neighboring ranch.

“My mother and her sister were born here in Colorado, but the stork dropped me in Chicago.” Ellie settled in for a short chat with Aldon’s mother. “Was Trudy your only sister?” Ellie wanted to know about Aldon’s family whether she stayed at the ranch or not. It would be something to think about when she was alone.

“Yes, Trudy was the eldest. After me, Papa got what the ranch needed, which was a passel of boys.”

“How many is a passel?” Amazed at how much better she felt talking to Nancy, Ellie began to relax.

“For us it was four. Karl died of the Spanish Influenza in 1918.” Nancy’s voice faltered.

“I’m so sorry. Your brothers are quite the gentlemen. I danced with them, you know.” Ellie smiled to herself thinking of the gallant older men who each in his own way reminded her of a giant.”

“Those big old fellows are as easy-going as they come, but they’ve had a great deal of hardship in their lives. They told me you were a sweet little thing. You received their blessing.” Nancy said.

“A sweet little thing?” Ellie sat up fully awake staring at Nancy. “That’s not how I want to be thought of.”

“Oh, no? How do you want them to think of you?” Nancy touched Ellie’s elbow as if to console her.

“As a good, strong, capable woman like you.” Ellie felt the anger simmering again as she recalled Aldon’s embarrassing and unnecessary rescue.

“You are strong and capable.” Nancy reached up and laid her warm hand against Ellie’s cheek. “And beautiful, too, no wonder Aldon is enraptured by you.”

“He’s what?” Ellie jerked her head back.

“Are you attracted to him? “Nancy asked.

“Well, I was, but…”

“His temper worries you.” Nancy nodded.

“I don’t like the idea of men fighting over me. That doesn’t do a woman’s reputation any good, does it?” Ellie started to get up, but when her feet hit the cold floor, she changed her mind. Ready now to talk in earnest she rested her back against a pillow and the iron rungs of the bedstead.

“I have never seen him jealous before. Maybe he’s going to have to learn not to be, but he has always been protective and that will stay with him.” Nancy pulled herself into a sitting position like Ellie’s.

Chapter 35 Robert“He hasn’t said much about his father,” Ellie glanced at Nancy to gauge her expression in reaction to the question.

“Robert had a rough upbringing, but he was a good man. He believed in discipline for children and horses, all our people did.”

“When did you know you loved Robert?” Ellie asked. Both pair of legs stretched toward the foot of the bed and Ellie pulled up the quilt.

“Being neighbors, our families worked the ranches together. On joint workdays, Robert kept my brothers from teasing me too much. They had a lot of respect for him. At haying time one year, when I was about eight, I was wearing a blue-print flour sack dress and running in the meadow with my hair flying. Robert caught me up under the arms and turned in circles with me. It made me dizzy, but when he set me down, he said I was as pretty as a Mountain Bluebird. It always makes me happy to think about that time. Eleven-year-old boys don’t usually speak kindly to small girls let alone protect them from their brothers. I knew he must have thought a lot of me to call me after a Mountain Bluebird. They are one of the prettiest things you ever saw.” She sighed. “They get their color from the sky.”

“Robert was small and dark-headed. Men sometimes called him Shorty and sometimes Pee Wee. He always resented it, but once he proved he was a fighter, they stopped. When I got my growth, I was taller than he was, and when we started stepping out we took some teasing. Inside, though, he was the biggest man I ever knew.”

“What happened to your Robert?” Ellie scooted down in the bed taking her pillow with her.

“After the war — after Paul…” Nancy sighed and drew her knees up under the cover with a low moan. “He got so sad he’d barely speak. It broke my heart, and I tried everything to cheer him. I grieved for Paul, too, but I knew I would see him again. It was awful to lose my husband to bitterness, but I still had two that needed me.

“When you lose your best friend and want to tell somebody about it, it would be your best friend whom you would tell, it’s the loneliest feeling in the world.” Ellie wondered if that made sense as she closed her eyes for a moment. In her imagination she saw Aldon’s face looking surprised and hurt. Biting her lower lip, she willed herself not to cry.

“You’re right, Robert always did his work, but he couldn’t find any peace, so he took to sitting at the kitchen table late into the night drinking beer. At first, I tried to stay and visit, but I couldn’t stay awake all night and do chores the next day, so I started coming upstairs without him. One morning in the wee hours, I realized he hadn’t come to bed, so I went downstairs and he was still at the table. I thought he had just laid his head down, but when I touched him, I knew he was gone.” Nancy dabbed at her eyes with the sheet.

 

Meditation Musing~Stars

Three Buntings
Beloved,

I place you in peoples lives when you need them and they need you.

Few relationships, no matter how intense at the beginning, last the rest of your life as many marriages and real friends do.

When your world meshes with someone else’s and the work I had in mind gets accomplished, the relationship can go into storage for years or perhaps forever.

This is especially true of the children and young people you know. My wisdom through you may be needed in the forming of certain stages of their character but you will not always be responsible for them, and they do not need to thank you forever. No one can completely fulfill you except Me. Each time you sincerely let go of a person, you get a diamond star of peace and satisfaction for your crown.

The important thing is to see others fully capable of making their own good decisions. One decision, for them and for you, and the most important one, is to love Me and commune with Me.

Go West~Chapter 34

 

 

Chapter 34 Ellie's Room

Go West

by DiVoran Lites 

Chapter thirty-four

Ellie

       In her room at the ranch, Ellie picked up the hog’s-hair brush from her dressing table, yanked it through her hair one hundred times, and threw it back on the table. Maybe I should go out to the barn and try to make Aldon understand how I feel, she thought. She dug her fingers into a jar of cold cream and slathered it onto her face while she pictured herself telling Aldon off. I can take care of myself. Don’t you know that if people see men fighting over me, they’ll think I’m a hussy? What business is it of yours who I dance with?

She touched the corner of her eye and felt moisture but knew she wasn’t crying. She had cream in her eye. She wiped it all off with a towel, grabbed her nail file, and sawed away at the nail on the index finger of her right hand.

“May I come in?” Someone knocked gently on the frame of the open door. Glancing up, Ellie saw Aldon’s mother, Nancy, smiling at her.

Forcing a smile Ellie invited Nancy to sit on the bed while she did the calisthenics she was taught in gymnasium at school.

As Nancy walked across the floor her bedroom slippers made a soft padding sound on the linoleum. Ellie noticed that Aldon’s mother was almost as tall as her son and that her hair was the same champagne color as his. A long braid hung down her back and a nimbus of curls framed her face, reminding Ellie of one of the Gish sisters in the moving pictures. Was it Dorothy or Lillian? She couldn’t decide. Ellie’s smile began to feel more genuine because Nancy had come to visit. She was, of course, still furious with Aldon, but now, Nancy’s quiet spirit began to calm her.

“I admire you young girls. You take such good care of your figures. I hope you won’t mind if I rest my back. I thought maybe we could talk while the house is quiet. I don’t plan to stay long.” She watched from the bed as Ellie jumped up and down flapping her arms. After she had done twenty-five jumping jacks, she touched her toes without bending her knees for the same number of times.

“This has been a long day,” Ellie said, throwing herself on the bed next to Aldon’s mother. She propped herself up on her elbow so she could look into Nancy’s face.

“The boys slept in this room,” Nancy said looking at the ceiling. “They had two beds, but like puppies in a nest, all piled into the same one. By the time they were seven, nine, and ten, they were horsing around so much that we gave each of them his own room. It didn’t do any good, though. Every night, Paul and Bill sneaked into bed with Aldon as soon as he fell asleep, which was immediately.”

“You really love your boys, don’t you?” Ellie lay back on the pillow.

“Aldon was always their hero, especially Paul’s.” Nancy paused and Ellie knew she was thinking about the son that had not returned from the war. If only Ellie could load him into her ambulance and bring him back. But, in war days, bringing anyone back for a complete cure was rare. It was so sad, but many of the lads had already died by the time the medics arrived on the battle field.

“Aldon blames himself for setting an example for him by enlisting.” Nancy seemed transfixed by the light bulb above the bed. “It’s not Aldon’s fault, Paul would have gone anyway if only to prove to himself he was a man.” Nancy spoke without emotion as if her grief had become a dull, but familiar ache. “It was always one of his dreams to become a soldier.”

“But Bill didn’t go to war.” Ellie said.

“No, they thought he had a heart murmur, so they classified him 4-F. We had no idea, except that he never had the stamina the others had. He was built small and never gained weight; which made him an excellent jockey. After the army rejected him he received quite a few white feathers in the mail. That made him feel as if people thought he was a coward.

“What did he do about that?” Ellie asked.

“He’s still trying to prove himself out there in Hollywoodland by taking on the most daring stunts they have,” Nancy answered.

“Lots of boys and men had heart conditions and other problems too.”

“Not one of my boys was ever afraid of anything, though,” Nancy continued. “Paul was a daredevil. He decided one day that he and his brothers would play a game they called Icarus. Bill jumped off the barn first, but he wasn’t’ hurt, neither was Aldon, but Paul broke his leg and was on crutches for weeks.”

“I hate for any man to have to go to war.” Ellie said, covering a yawn. The mattress felt just right, and she liked hearing about Aldon and his brothers even though in some parts it was heartbreaking.

“We gals sometimes don’t understand the things men have to do.” Nancy’s voice grew softer. “They are willing to fight for their country and we’re grateful for that.”

“I don’t understand any man except my granddad,” Ellie said.

“Tell me about your family,” Nancy raised up to fluff her pillow then lay back down again. “Your opa makes his living from cattle too?”

“Not now, he did before I was born. He helps Grandmother run the department store.” Sudden gratitude for Nancy’s gentle company filled Ellie, but she reminded herself that she still had reason to resent the lovely woman’s son.

 

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Meditation Musing~Ember

Embers

 

Beloved,

Do you know what I am asking of you? I am asking you to be a loving person, compassionate and humble, even to yourself. Let me helpand your days will be filled with the peace that passes understanding. Don’t think you always know best. Your thoughts are not my thoughts, nor are your ways my ways. Don’t think your main job is to criticize and correct others. Give them some space. Don’t set yourself up for disappointment by deciding you’re entitled to anything on this earth. When you feel sorry for yourself, it blocks others from feeling empathy for you. Let love be an ember in you that never goes out. Warm yourself on it and allow others to warm themselves too without judgement or censure.

Near to the Heart of God

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